I don’t think I know how to value time.
Take this week, for example.
It has been my first proper week of holiday, and I have been tired. I often get migraines, so when I’m tired I try to rest.
But oh, the guilt.
I have so many projects to do, and here I am resting? That can’t be right.
The funny thing is, I have been doing things all week. I’ve practiced coding, I’ve edited websites, I’ve scheduled nearly 6 weeks worth of posts and I’ve been making a baby blanket.
And still the guilt.
I know that I shouldn’t feel guilty. But all the messages from all the sources suggest to me that I should have done more. I should have done something interesting, something instragrammable, something worthwhile.
But time on its own is worth valuing.
Time to be able to read, watch your favourite show, create.
Time to tidy, bake, clean.
Time to rest.
I want to learn to value time for itself, rather than for what I can do with it.
Let’s let go of the guilt. And enjoy what time has to offer.
Jena Ren, 2022