I don’t think I know how to value time.

Take this week, for example.

It has been my first proper week of holiday, and I have been tired. I often get migraines, so when I’m tired I try to rest.

But oh, the guilt.

I have so many projects to do, and here I am resting? That can’t be right.

The funny thing is, I have been doing things all week. I’ve practiced coding, I’ve edited websites, I’ve scheduled nearly 6 weeks worth of posts and I’ve been making a baby blanket.

And still the guilt.

I know that I shouldn’t feel guilty. But all the messages from all the sources suggest to me that I should have done more. I should have done something interesting, something instragrammable, something worthwhile.

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But time on its own is worth valuing.

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Time to be able to read, watch your favourite show, create.

Time to tidy, bake, clean.

Time to rest.

I want to learn to value time for itself, rather than for what I can do with it.

Let’s let go of the guilt. And enjoy what time has to offer.

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Jena Ren, 2022